Fibro just doesnt affect your muscles and stuff. It also affects so much more...for me anyways. It affects my poor noggin! I cant remeber things anymore! Well, it affects my short term memory. You ask me what happened years ago, and I can tell you. But you ask me what happened 5 minutes ago...BLANK!! Just start calling me Dory! ;)
I get consistent migraines, I get these "lightening" paings that go through my head, my jaw is starting to hurt. Im CONSTANTLY tired!! ...UGH Like right now, I cant think of ALL that Fibro affects!
Im just tired!
I cant really describe the pain, unless you have it.
I have so many friends that have Fibro. EDS. RA. Its so sad. I love you all.
All I know is when I try to describe my pain to someone who doesnt have this, they always have the same look. The look of, "Im sorry youre hurting, but I have no idea what youre talking about!" Thats understandable. But when you talk to someone about it and you describe the pain, Ive had a couple people look at me like, "Yeah RIGHT!" I have even had one person say, "Well, Im sorry, but I dont believe you. How can you be in that much pain and still do what you do???"
I looked at this person and couldnt find the words.
Then I thought about what she said... How can I be in this much pain and still do what I do? Well, let me tell ya...
Im in tons of pain, yes...But I have hope! My boys keep me going. My boys need me! THEY are the reason I get up every morning! I get up in the morning and have to sit on the side of my bed for a few minutes, because I feel like Ive been beat up, like someone has taken a baseball bat to me all night!!...and I have to wait for a few for everything to dull and stop throbbing as much. Then, I slowly start walking, usually to the kitchen to start my coffee, and try to get the day started.
I may not be the most active mom...I cant run or chase my boys or things like that, but damn it my babies know I love them and I do what I can with them! We usually color together or play cards...stuff like that! I love my babies and would do anything for them...to keep them happy...to keep them smiling.
My hubs is pretty supportive. He helps me when he can. He's in pain too...what a pair we are! LOL We both try to help each other, encourage each other. Love you babyboy!
*sigh*Sorry for the pity party. I just need to vent sometimes. And I know several of my friends will understand this, if they read it.
